Lost in Boonville, Day 60
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Pirated Cinemax, Anderson residence, Boonville, N. Carolina
Today is day sixty of my Boonville project. I am leaving Boonville, N. Carolina for Boonville, new York on Monday. The last week has been very difficult. I've found that the last five or six days in each town I've been to (Boonville, MO and NC) have been excruciating. I am beyond mentally exhausted. It is a lot harder to work on the road then I initially expected: trying to meet interesting people all the time, shooting everyday, continuing to get fresh images, all while staying sane. I have many people invested in me and this project, including Hallmark. I am often hit with a sense of failure and guilt. It's hard to keep up the momentum. Some days the exhaustion, headaches and second-guessing is so hard that I cannot move.
Two days ago I awoke to that feeling. I did not want to move but the guilt was overflowing. I forced myself to get up and download and load my 4x5 film. After I downloaded the shot film, I opened my changing bag and sat there, just zoning out. I went to load the empty holders, only to find my box of film open and exposed to the ambient light. I lost twenty-five sheets of film, or two days worth of work. I was devastated. Words cannot explain. In the eight years of using my 4x5, I have never made that mistake. I quickly excepted it, went through my notes, wrote down the shots I believed were in the box and then called my girlfriend. The highs are high but the lows are really low.
posted by Timothy Briner @ 6:38 PM,
1 Comments:
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At September 30, 2007 10:33 PM,
Wayne Wallace said...
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Hey Tim,
Keep the faith buddy!!!
I think what you are doing is great and it's an inspiration to all of us.
Thanks for sharing your experiences.
Hallmark prepared you for anything now go shoot some more film and be careful I want to see those images hanging in a gallery some day.
;-)
